What a jam packed month I have had. Finally getting into some work outs that actually make me sleep at night. My body is sore and I love it. I do have to keep myself in check as I seem to be nearly overdoing myself every day on the fun level but I think Im addicted to water and play and my mediation comes from being in nature. Sometimes I feel like I am being so lazy and not motivated to do any projects or to finish anything or to even do something so simple as read a book but I then remember I need to have that break with my brain. I am always go go go but sometimes I think its good to do nothing. It helps with the next steps and the next things on the horizon, being able to tackle what is ahead of me is very important.
Here is some tumblr inspiration for this lazy sunday…
Pour me a big glass of ginger ice tea please. When you go on a walk in the blustery wind do you let all the sadness get blown out of you. All the mean things you say, all the hate. I let it slip out of my fingers as I dig my feet into the sand and push through all the unhappy parts of a human. Let it all go floating up into the sky. I dislike my fear which is hate.
When you say you love rain, do you love rain like I love rain? Do you need it like a shark needs fish, like a bird needs to chirp or how the sun need the mountains to paint the most beautiful sunrises…… What are you? A young piece of sea glass, still sharp on the edges…. what did you see as a baby in the arms of your parents, who did you watch and who did you follow?
How many days can you go without crying? I can’t go a second without making myself laugh. When you wake up early do something that shocks your system….. I breathe in and begin a day of endless movement. I can walk now…. but I want to run. Run across the upper plains…. across the sagebrush, like a wild horse. I don’t want to feel held back, I want to run till I can’t breathe till I fall over. I can’t wait till I can do that. Lay on my back with my heart pounding out of my body and watch clouds sail by.
Kick your flip flops off and run into the wild, is it spring or is it summer, let your body feel the world spinning. Paint those nails peachy pink, put on a big sun hat, do back flips off the boat, wear sunscreen. SPF 30 please. Tipsy thoughts clicking. Dress up and go out into the big bold world. Its a scary place and you never know whats around the corner. Whenever you let it all go and go for it you could risk it all but man its worth it when you get what you want. Crisp champagne candles, Gardenia floats in and out of the breezy bedroom, hair dyes itself in the hot sun. Ginger and lilkoi, the waves call my name but the sand holds me close as I lay back and stare at clouds all day dreaming about life about dreams about inspiration. Fire burns inside me. A little fire in my eye if you look close, if I don’t turn to the north and let the wind pick me up and let my wings fly.
I would dress up like you would for theater to go to the grocery store. I would put on big hats dark sunnies and big red lip stick if I thought it would really help the fact that going into public on crutches is about the very last thing I feel like doing. I am very over this horrible act that I have put myself through far to many times. I am also sick of trying to drag things around the house and put them away. Pretty much I am ready to walk. My body feels good and I am happy to say that I only have around 10 more days to go before I can attempt some exciting new things like a sunset walk on the beach or just be able to go the store by myself and hang out in the aisle without someone asking me a million questions on why I am on Maui on Crutches. Truly Im not that upset because this amount of time is a cupcake compared to the last injury, I think its just nearly impossible to feel sexy or good about yourself and I do like to feel those things!
To keep you guys up to date, I had my ACL, meniscus and some Femur bone issues operated on, so I am 3 weeks out of surgery and feeling amazing. I have been biking with no resistance and swimming, I have chosen the pool over the ocean in hopes of not getting to excited and drifting off to sea. I have this bad habit of thinking I can do things on crutches most people would never dream of doing with a healthy body so I have to really focus on slowing down and relaxing and healing! Maui has always been a great place for me to heal, mostly because the combination of therapy, beach walks, biking and swimming in April is very appealing and an exciting feat for a wyoming girl. I will be back in the mountains and dry climate in no time but for now its all about getting my body to a place where it feels rested and to a place where I feel I can start charging! I am jumping ahead as usual since I am still not walking but like I said I am going for blue ribbons this time around so I am very motivated.
In the mean time I am working on organizing my life which seems to be a never ending project, visiting with friends, getting motivation to begin my jewelry line ( this involves learning how to make it properly) and learning to play a new instrument which is what Uncle Peter thought I should pick up! Im thinking the Ukulele….. my team mates are all so inspirational I want to contribute!
Here are a couple new photos kevin and I got ourselves into this afternoon. A daily inspiration. ONE LOVE in a very comfortable and sexy ACACIA swimwear dress. Photography Kevin Pritchard and yes another goal; learn more about all the new cameras and post more photos!
ONE LOVE inspiration for my lovely Sarah who lives by this!
I believe in Karma. I believe in kindness, I dream of bright sunny days, I would not be alive with out my friends, the love my friends give me the way they pick me up when everything else falls down and shatters. My friends are my family, my true loves. Thank you.
Heaven is a place on earth, a place in my heart, the mountains, the woods, where I grew up, where I live, that is who I am. I beg for peacefulness for calmness for certainty. I feel empty when people hurt others when things don’t make sense. Why take it all away now when you’re already down on the ground. Its fascinating to live life, all the curve balls and twists and turns that accompany the ups and downs. Everyone has a story everyone has a jagged edge in their life. We all have to over come things, it tests us, makes us smarter and you find out who people really are, who you really are.
I dream of sunny days
I sit in my mind with a cocktail, a sword and dark sunglasses staring over the edge into the deep sparkling pool below watching the bubbles emerge with bits of the weeks memories touching the surface and bursting. I still sit on top of my throne in my little imaginary world giggling and I have smile, Im wondering why I can always be so happy. Im bummed but for some reason I can’t cry I can’t be upset when I know that I can come back I can do this and its another adventure. For me it seems whenever I accomplish something and feel bliss I need to check myself because I usually come crashing down soon after. Not the most ideal start to my summer. I had a rough year and I was going to enjoy some endless surf days and running in the mountains but as they say what doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger, only creates a fire and one that can burn anything down. I for sure have some competitiveness that surfaced from somewhere in the last week. I am all about gold stars and blue ribbons and pushing the limits. NO one can tell me no and I am doing this and going to be stronger than before. Its not going to be easy, blood, guts, dirt, tears, smiles, bruises and then hopefully some more glory!
I have to say the support from everyone has been amazing. I am happy that I can inspire people and I hope everyone knows that every email text FB post everything effects me, makes me happy and gives me hope. Its not easy even if I may look like it is. If there is a will there is a way and I want to prove that bad luck and unfortunate events can always be overpowered by hard work and a love for life and a passion for something can conquer all!
Here was my inspiration for the spring….. Artsy indian feather love, my friends amazing designs, Acacia beauty, cowboy country and an endless desire to roam the world road tripping and living life to the fullest!
(SI, Ellespain, tumblr, spelly, Acacica)
I feel so close to you right now, to my soul, to the reason I set out on this journey, to the reason I love and live and smile and laugh, for the reason I inspire and push. I love my friends, my family, my fans the little glorious children who remind me that playing and laughing like a child is a state of mind and it must be a part of your mind for life. This isn’t about now this isn’t about 5 years ago, for the future its about the whole being. All of the little drops of glitter, light and glow the dust the particles, the reason we are all here right now and what we can do. If its to just put a smile on someone’s face or to inspire a nation or to stop horrible things happening to helpless people in other countries, whatever it is thats what we are. Thats what we are meant to be doing in this day. I feel like the inspiration can come from hate, love, jealousy, questioning, being lost, not understanding something, turn it around. I didn’t understand why I was injured all the time, why it was me. Why me…. but thats not the point. I am lucky to be here now and to pushing the new age, the the new world to extreme to be putting smiles back on peoples faces to get them out in the world and to be a human to do extraordinary things in the world. You might loose the loved ones, you might spend the money you might not have what you want but the one thing you have and that you can rock is your soul! Go out in the world and make a difference be amazing and prove to all the people who doubted you that the color blue is not just a color and that a good laugh can last forever and that if everyone else around you screwed up, you can turn it around and make the change in the world, the change the world needs and thats the coolest sexiest thing out there! I love this world, this place that we are all in and the people in it. I would spend days hugging and kissing everyone if I could! Just to show how much love there is and how much love I have!
It just hit me I got second yesterday! I can’t believe it. I dreamed of it for so long to be on the podium. To watch so many friends and teammates inspire me to keep pushing that it will happen, to be up there and have your dreams come true! I am soooooooooooo soooooo happy. I want everyone to know how much I love you all and how thankful I am that you all supported me and believed in me for so long. I am excited to get back on the hill and keep pushing for more! Fueling the fire! Loving it all right now!
