LIttle by little I have made it week by week. It has been 8 weeks on crutches. Long weeks, even though time always flies by, it has been long. It helped to have the holidays to entertain part of those long weeks, and Maui is amazing for hanging out and healing. The vibe here is amazing. Its truly a one of a kind-kinda place. Soft, sweet, fresh, salty yet sweet. I enjoy being able to sit and look out across the ocean, dreaming of far away places and ideas. Letting the good and the bad thoughts twirl around in the wind and go crashing onto the rocks with the waves.
Lately It has been a bit stormy here with powerful swells coming in and hazing clouds cover the island. I like to get caught up with nature and relax into the moment. Its hard to do when you are injured and your thoughts are consumed with what will happen next, will I be able to do it, will I be scared…. so its nice to become one with something. To have faith in something and my faith is nature, the environment I am surrounded by. I like the birds and the leaves, the palm trees and the sunsets, the whales and the sea fish. I like to dive deep into the ocean with my eyes closed and the water massaging my body to become one with nature is so invigorating and calming.
I am about to start the next healing process. Its time to walk again. It may take a while, but Im ready to put that left foot down and to dig it into the sand and walk along the beach. I want to walk, it sounds so simple and easy but right now that is the biggest adventure I have coming my way and Im super excited!
” When we fall down in life, we must try as much as we can to rise up. But we should know that rising up or how we rise up on our feet is not important but rather what we pick from the ground when rising up.”
Author Unknown –
Its my first Green christmas and Im so so so excited. Jackson was getting a bit to cold for me and dangerous trying to crutch everywhere on ice. Gnarly! So here I am in Maui relaxing in the sun, reading books, writing a bit, trying to get into some things to keep my mind busy. Oh Kevin’s been letting me use his sick camera and Im getting into photography. I really want to do a short film and learn how to do everything myself. Been going to some good christmas parties and hanging out on the beach with friends. Anytime I get a good laugh in Im happy! I am not as into baking as I was when it was a million degrees to cold in jackson and I was hiding out in my cabin. Now that Im back into summer weather its hard to get into baking. I am not slowing down on the eating though, I don’t know injuries must make you hungrier! A big week of cooking coming up. What is everyone cooking for Christmas dinner??? I am always so interested. Anyways here are some photos of the family and I took them so tell me what you think! Oh and check out our sweet tree! He he he
So I am finally making it out of my slump. Its been three weeks and its time to start shining again. Plus I don’t think I can keep eating so much ( thanks to my grandmas good home cookin) and lay in bed or Ill be 200 lbs before I know it. I have been doing well in therapy which is always the hardest part I think. You make it through the crash through the hospital and then you think you’re golden and you need to start learning how to bend your leg. Not sweet. Scott Harmon does such a great job at Jackson Hole Physical therapy in the Aspens so its all good. I am already to 90, unfortunately I think that was the easy part.
I have also been doing Pilates with Erin. She is a kick ass instructor and a great friend. She is so patient with me and knows the best exercises for a cripple mess like me. She just opened her new studio, CORE in jackson. If you are in town or live here she has great classes and privates!
And the big one for today is Christmas!!!!!!!!! Its coming! Its so close, I love this time of the year, dark, fire place is always going, cookies, cakes, cider, its the coziest time of year. Even though Im getting my cold butt out of here to Maui this year so I can at least be a little productive and get a tan. Its also the best time of year to treat yourself to some sexy radical cloths and what better way then to do it local! My girls Gillian and Laura put there good fashion sense and extraordinary talents to good use and started “For love and Lemons.” They are in their second season and kickin butt. The winter line is out and I have a few shots that I liked and lucky me, my pops got me a few items so I didn’t break any shopping rules! Either way if you want to feel sexy and look it get a piece for xmas! Go to forloveandlemons.com to get the rest!
Movember came and went so fast for me. It started out with a bang and ended with one too. I had a great time skiing my first and last slalom of the season and celebrating my big 24 in FInland. The best part was checking out all the great Mustaches the boys were rocking! Then the big Bang came and now I am on the road to recovery. So far I have had a few fun day trips up to the park to catch a breath taking sunset, got to help my brother celebrate his 21st. Made multiple amazing cakes and dinners with friends and try not to spend to much time watching abc.com, Oh and I got a great day christmas shopping in IF… but don’t worry didn’t break any shopping rules! Enjoy the holiday cheer!
Im alive, hiding from the world, healing once again, day after day the count down begins. Sadness doesn’t explain, more of an emptiness but at the same time grateful for all that I still have. This is never easy but what is. I have amazing people around me helping me and healing me and a world at my finger tips. Thank you everyone who has helped me along and who is sending love and prayers! It means the world to me.
Bubbles and smiles, loves and laughter! Another year down another amazing one to come! Beautiful electric snow flakes glisten on my eyelashes for my finnish birthday, years of love and happiness, of freedom and exploring flickers in my mind. Silliness and giggles of a lucky girl. Birthday cake and getting drunk on wine in a bath tub full of bubbles. Sparklers and birthday hats that make you feel like a queen! And never forget those birthday spankings! TWENTY FOUR this year!
We had an absolute beautiful day today. We got to freeski on the hill and the sun came out just in time for it at one in the afternoon and then set at 3. A perfect last day of being 23!
We are in Levi, Finland and boy its crisp up here. It feels like Christmas and you crave hot chocolate all the time. We had a good trip up here, played bananagrams and hung out in the Helsinki Airport for a while. Twelve hours later (yes it took 12 hours to get to Finland from Germany). We were all hyped up I felt like I could have gone skiing. Our team is so awesome and we have so much fun together. We push each other, make fun of each other and laugh a lot. Whether we are telling stories, watching way to much youtube or just being totally out of control. We have fun.
Its like a little snow globe world up here. Looks like someone shook us and you can never really tell what time it is. When we got out on the hill this morning it felt like we were going out for a night session. I was so excited to ski because we had two days off one being travel and it just feels so good getting outside with the wind in your face. Its a cute little place here, a bunch of new buildings so must be getting popular!
I found out today that Trevor sleeps. I went to get him beer for him to practice is beer commercials with ( I got carded and the drinking age is no more than 17 so I was stoked) and went to give it to him and he opened the door grabbed the beer and said thanks for waking me up. Hailey and I couldn’t believe we caught him sleeping. It was unreal, now I know when he sleeps, every couple days he takes a nap. That’s probably it.
Either way we are having a blast up here and excited to be racing soon! The vibe is back to being good and whenever you feel down all you have to do is get Sarah to laugh so you can check out her cracked out redneck cute missing tooth smile and listen to her twangy we ain’t in Texas anymore howl.
Finally got to see the sun shine in 9 days! Unreal. Just in time to head up to Finland. We are done training. Racing time is back on. Training was pretty tough this week but I had to keep in mind what my mother always told me. Its good to suck before a race. I guess I usually do. Who knows. All I know is I want a sick birthday present and kicking butt this weekend is what is going to satisfy that! So I better kick it up!
Im excited to race, I really like going up to Finland. Its so different and the Arctic life is just so cozy and remote at the some time. I like that feeling, being totally alone but somehow having some warmth in your heart. We had some serious backing jobs going on. One bag we are leaving in europe for when we come back in December, one bag going to Finland but then we can’t bring to much so we are leaving a bag in a car next to the airport so when we fly back through Munich on the way home on sunday we can run out grab it and check it and get back on our next flight. So Complicated. Gotta make sure everything is in the right place! Always exciting and always with a smile! Lots of love!
